It’s just a me issue

Gosh… I’m just a mess right now 🙁

Programming is what kept me together. I always thought it was my purpose on life, “I am meant to program, It’s what I do”. But over the year i Have been programming less and less. I suppose my “Peak” in programming was during the pandemic what was it? Spring of 2020. Every day I would wake up and just program, I didn’t have to worry about school, job, life in general. It was all coding But working on my personal projects progressively dwindled as I got more work hours and started school. And I’ve only gotten busier. with me attending an actual Uni and doing Army and ROTC stuff

It really sucks, I have been stupidly busy with life obligations this last month. I’ve had no time to enjoy watch anime of program. 2 of the things that I really enjoy. Even during “Spring break” yea, It’s not a break. I just worked more hours and the few hours of free time where ultimately wasted

It really makes me sad. I feel like it’s the one thing I need to keep doing, If i stop programming I lose my identity. I don’t know maybe i’m just making up excuses and there is time to do what I want to do. I suppose efficiency and time management is key here. And I want to change

Well… How do I fix this?

Time management… being efficient with my time. It must be done. It is true that I had plenty of time to work on my projects and other things during spring break. But that time was simply wasted Work was around 8 hours every day, Here is how I wasted my time every day after work during spring break

Day	WASTE
Mar 10	Not much work, “Cleaned” my room, Flew a stupid drone, Wasted time on reddit
Mar 11	Wasted time on reddit, “Organized” room
Mar 12	Wasted time on “Planning”, nothing got done
Mar 13	Gooning, Nothing done
Mar 14	Was gonna go for a run, just Gooned, wasted time

And now I am here, Saturday night being angered on my decisions and enraged on the fact that I will return to campus tomorrow with nothing achieved

The solution: Plan stuff out, Sort of like a schedule, a list of things to do. I’ve tried using apps before and todo lists it doesn’t work. It’s not like there is an incentive to get things done, when It comes to school my grade and career is on the line, Work: My job is on the line. So what is the incentive in personal work? None really, and thats where discipline comes in

I need the discipline to get things done, I need to make time. I know my time wasters I simply have to cut out the time wasters and focus on what matters Perhaps, keeping a journal, a log of what went well in the day and what didn’t go so well. What where my time wasters? Identify these and get rid of them

Hopefully things get better

Programing makes me feel complete, It has to be a daily thing for me. I’ve been neglecting it for far too long and I plan to change this now No matter the amount of responsibilities or how busy I get with life. Making time for programming should be one of my priorities Things will change for the better, I have a good feeling of this

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